On Humiliation

Jan Coztás/2006

An interesting multi-blog conversation is unfolding in the academic blogosphere about the role of humiliation in academic relationships. While the conversation is quite complex overall, I find myself fixated on a single supposition: academics seek out humiliation. From my limited vantage point in the conversation, I have not read the book they are discussing nor been an active participant in the conversation, it seems the idea is based on a discussion about a “fictitious” academic from a working class background writing about a series of humiliating events in her early career. Part of that writing includes the fear of being outed as a poor girl in a field in which everyone is assumed to be rich and talking class is often the surest way to get shoved to the margins.

Long time readers, no doubt, can see why I might fixate on such a point. Perhaps it is because I am a poor girl who was given endless “tea cup tests” (does your pinky stick out or not) at my first appointment at Snooty Poo U. Perhaps it is because I chose to work at an extremely poor university that serves even poorer students and spend a ridiculous amount of my career saying to those who assume we are all elite surrounded by over-privileged students that not only is their reality not mine but there is nothing wrong with me, my scholarship, or my cognition because I chose to leave New England. Or Perhaps, it is just because I read, research, and work with and for people who have all at some point suffered serious humiliation at the hands of elitests who shrug off their cruelty like a stray cat hair on their sweater. I don’t think any of us seek out humiliation and if some do,  in this context, I would argue that it is about internalized shame taught to us outsiders to keep us from ever reaching for things we are allowed to dream about but never call our own.

More than that, I wonder about those who delight in shame. Is the delight in recognizing behaviors you have once engaged in but now have the privilege to forget the desperation that motivated them? By which I mean, when one seeks out counsel from Super Star X as a junior scholar, isn’t the motivation primarily to learn what Super Star X knows? Or if you are more self-interested, then perhaps the goal is to be taken under Super Star X’s wing so as to sail through tenure (which seldom happens by the way)? And in that instance does the humiliation stem from the system that marks out Super Star X as untouchable and therefore able to publicly humiliate others or even destroy their careers? Are you really a self-hating fool for talking to Super Star X if this is the only system in which you can engage him and he you?

Let me put it another way. Hegemony is based on naturalizing inequality to the point where we no longer recognize it and/or engage in it without the intent to do so. As students and junior scholars your success in academe is often based on networking with Senior scholars who have the power to radically impact your funding, advancement, tenure, and overall career. As you pass through each stage of academe the power they have over you diminishes. However, in order to pass through those stages you will likely have to swallow your pride, dilute your morals, and except things that in any other field of work you would be empowered to change. Those little compromises make you more and more immune to the vast array of inequalities and oppressions that fester in the academic world. This happens to everyone regardless of identity but is exacerbated by membership in a marginalized group and multiplied outward by the number of groups to which one belongs. This is something that we all know, that is written about in anthologies, and the subject of endless panels, and yet it is something that most would deny when reading it so starkly written out on a page as I have done here.

When you cross the line from un-ternured to tenured, the game changes immensely in some ways and not nearly as much in others. However, tenure provides a certain kind of safety that when coupled with years of minimizing and intentionally forgetting, ultimately translates to forgetting what it is like to dependent on good evaluations, Senior scholars liking you or at least not being annoyed with you because you wore purple on a Tuesday, and people perceiving of you as smart but not a threat to any of the status quo ideas that predate you. People forget what it is like to be the girl in the corner with one wool sweater, sleeves rolled up to hide the hole, in a room of girls with closets full of cashmere (to reference Pat Hill Collins essay on class antagonism in academe).

And while I am making critical feminist references to class analysis and academe why not trot out some tried and true readings on the subject; each of the books below contain essays on the subject:

  1. Alsion Trash
  2. Anzaldúa & Moraga This Bridge Called My Back
  3. Collins Fighting Words
  4. Kadi Thinking Class
  5. Langhout et. al “Assessing Classism in Academic Settings”
  6. “Classless and Clueless at NWSA” (haven’t read this but have had it on my to read shelf for a while)

So I put it to you dear readers, those of you who are working class academics or simply people whose identities have been the source of others attempting to humiliate you in the workplace:

  1. do you seek out humiliation?
  2. If so, why?
  3. what do you think the purpose of humiliation really is regardless of your own relationship to it?

As I always, it would be great to discuss it here for the people who don’t use twitter, but if you want to talk real time you know I’ll always answer your tweets.

3 thoughts on “On Humiliation

  1. there have been a lot of interesting discussions about this post elsewhere in the blogosphere and on my twitter & tumblr accounts (sorry but I’ve forgotten my tumblr password so I can’t participate there). While I can’t link you to the twitter discussion, I can link you to a short discussion that seems to encapsulate most of the responses this post has received in just 3 comments http://deconstructing-class.dreamwidth.org/1797.html

    I’m not sure why ppl were afraid to weigh in here; perhaps they feared being judged by the academics who humiliate others for sport. Those ppl generally don’t make up the readership here but they do occasionally make thinly veiled snipes elsewhere in print or in public, so I understand. It’s just too bad we couldn’t have engaged across the divides present in the thinking about humiliation or academe in general here like we used to.

  2. hey, i would like to read more about this. can the blog conversation you’re referencing be linked?

    “However, in order to pass through those stages you will likely have to swallow your pride, dilute your morals, and accept things that in any other field of work you would be empowered to change.Those little compromises make you more and more immune to the vast array of inequalities and oppressions that fester in the academic world. ”

    what kinds of things, if you don’t mind elaborating?

    • I don’t quite know what you are asking here, when you ask for “more elaboration”, the tenure process involves a series of negotiations based on power, of which the person seeking tenure often has the least (even students can complain about said colleague and if someone has decided to vote against them those complaints have more power than the faculty as well; if not, then they have very little meaning). If you choose (however limited that choice is) to acquiesce to unfair or marginalizing power in order to get some of your own, it is very likely that you will become habituated to that stance. The longer you hold tenure, the longer you have reaped its benefits in ways that are naturalized to make you buy in.

      I didn’t link to the conversation because (1) it started as a book review discussion that was largely irrelevant to the point I was making here and (2) I have a policy against linking to at least one of the blogs involved and to another whenever it is discussing the former, because my experience is that famous academic blogger X is a vindictive, unprofessional, and prone to character assassination in real life and on line and swarm politics on line when challenged in anyway. And as you know, I am not a big fan of the swarm or misrepresentation and I try to keep it off the blog.

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